The *uckenings 44

Birds are stunning creatures. That’s a stand alone statement and is not going to be a smooth transition into anything else.

Have you ever thought about how useless those coffee cups in cafes are? They are way too small and the coffee is cold in two milliseconds time. I am only noticing now, after I haven’t been in a coffee shop for some time, how much better coffee in a big nice cup is. It just makes sense. It warms up your hands and if you make coffee for yourself or cue at a take away place for a coffee, it is to drink an actual coffee right? It’s not a ´let’s go have a coffee´ kind of thing where it’s not about coffee but the coffee is an excuse for anything other you could possibly think of. I really got to appreciate coffee again lately. I mean I will never go back to a situation where I just order coffee at a place, because I don’t know what else to order. It’s actually quite disrespectful to the coffee itself. It deserves to be treasured for the precious liquid it is. How good is a big nice cup of coffee? And how many coffees have I wasted? Liters and liters to be honest. Liters of unappreciated coffee has gone down my throat and probably taken part in my current reflux issues. It might have to do with over eating as well. Since back in Europe, I came across real European fat. Europeans aren’t severely overweight like some Americans are but there’s hardly anybody who doesn’t smoke cigarettes, who has a normalish body type. And the smokers seem to be super skinny mostly and just done with food altogether. So this medium overweight I witness is a big issue and has become the average body type. Those bodies seem bloated more than they seem fat. Like big toads. There’s hardly any chins left. Not even double chins. It’s just a straight line from mouth to chest. So I am thinking, what has gotten them into this vicious cycle of not caring anymore how much or what they consume? Why doesn’t it matter anymore? It seems like the organs are trying to separate themselves from their self distractive host. Liver, heart and co. are saying ´wow, keep your distance´. That sound familiar? Anyhow, all of this kind of reminds me of smelly Chinese plastic for some reason. Plastic people. Like inflexible rubber. Sometimes these bodies seem so out of place (or space) and untouchable that I am wondering if they really exist or if it’s all just an illusion. Or, another reason could be the fact that my doctor had prescribed me pain killers and muscle relaxers for my aching neck. Hallucinations have become frequent and not only my screensaver has scared the crap out of me but also the fridge, a wine bottle and even my own foot. So after nearly scaring myself to death over nothing for one and a half days I decided to terminate the therapy and move on with my life, dealing with the pains in my neck differently. So if you are sitting at home thinking about getting high, don’t look for a dealer in the park. It’s dangerous. Go see a doctor.

I can’t seem to get over the fact, how some people take out the right to manipulate others to their advantage. In what kind of frame of mind do you have to be, to knowingly make someone do something you want them to do, without them knowing you made them do it or without actually asking them to do it but you know exactly it will affect the other person in a negative way to do what you want them to do without having part in it? And what’s the point? Power? Profit? wanking? Manipulation should be seen as a crime only and not as an expertise. It’s the root of dishonesty and it used to be called sneaky. Or lying. I hope I will survive to see the day those people are publicly being charged for their crimes or just for it to become less normal to be honest. And I am not talking about reversed psychology games or such. These are harmless compared to what is being taught to the younger generation as normal behavior. Let's be nice again to each other.